I had already saved a draft to write about perfectionism, and yesterday it finally struck..
I am a perfectionist, and a relative noob at model building. I am also pretty ambitious when it comes to this hobby, although I don’t take trying a new thing lightely. Unfortunatly being a noob means you will also trying new things is inevitable, and so is not executing them flawlessly no matter how much YouTuber vids you check out.
To be absolutely clear: I am not even sure I did something irreparable. But that’s not all that perfectionism is about really.. it’s about the insecurity when trying something new: will this make things better or will I destroy the end result?
Let me go through my progress of yesterday and today:
Really there was no reason the be in a hurry here.. but making an unforced error like that makes you feel like you need to restore something quickly I guess.
I guess what is really gnawing at me at this point is the sanding.. It’s so easy to ruin details with it, and I sometimes find it so hard to know if you’re still on track or if you’re going to far with it. The wings are perhaps a bit flat on the front and I will have to do some very light sanding to hopefully restore that. What also has me worried (You might be able to see that in the last picture) is the scratches the sanding makes.
But from what I understand this is the reason people use primer! Another thing I haven’t done yet, and I keep thinking my shopping spree will be at an end at some point. What I likely will need at this point:
- Primer (what colour? White? Gray? Silver? Can I use acryilic primer when using acrylic paint?)
- A little tool to get some of the line detail back since I surfaced some of it off
I did get something else in the mail though that I will first try on the Spit-wreck:
I didn’t sleep too good the last 2 days, and ofcourse this does not help. I make more mistakes and moving on after a mistake becomes much harder.
But I am still having a lot of fun with all this.. for every perfectionist there comes a time that feeling of a perfect streak will come to an end and the insecurity will drip in about the end result.. But I have to let that go and have fun like I was doing. This model will not be perfect, and neither will the next one be.
And is there ever such thing as perfect anyway?
2 thoughts on “FW190 build update / Being a perfectionist”
Nothing is perfect in this hobby and in the world as a matter of fact.
This hobby is about having fun and testing our resilience.
The model kits are getting much more detailed and with lots of delicate parts.
I have had exactly the same problems when I restarted building my unbuilt collection in 2013. I am still learning but reaching for perfection is not a goal anymore.
That’s absolutely the attitude I should aim for!