The I-16 has been sitting like this for a week. I ‘cleaned’ the green off the body, however I damaged it in the process.
Not sure how this will look after priming, but the beauty of working with WW2 gear is that we can make it work even with some damage to the kit..
Modelbuilding hasn’t been on my mind though. It could be because of this mistake, but more likely I am just in a bit of a dip of my life.
My mother died last summer. She was diagnosed with breast cancer 3 years ago, and although she survived the first hurdle, it came back sometime last year. By the time it was clear it had spread to her lungs and throat it was too late.
I guess we all thought she had overcome the cancer, but the truth is: it was never gone, and we knew it. Because of heart problems she wasn’t able to complete the entire treatment. We didn’t think too much of it, or at least I didn’t.. and it would have made no difference since the treatment was just impossible.
She had been complaining about having almost no energy since the end of last year, but in februari she had been cleared by doctors – no cancer, see you next year. I am not sure how, but she did actually have cancer, and she passed away on the 14th of Juli. 72 years old.
I am a grown man, and I haven’t ‘needed’ my mother in years, living my life on the other side of the country. I also would have expected to be devastated after losing one of my parents. But to be honest, I am not devastated. It has however given me a sense of how little it all means. We are here for such a short time, and even after that realization I have not been kicked into gear to get things done.
I haven’t taken a drop of alcohol since the end of March and although I don’t miss the taste or the loss of control, I have to admit I miss the feeling of not feeling.
I guess I am a little depressed at the moment, however I will manage it.. my other big hobby is sim racing, and the community I am an admin for will do a 24 hour race for the Make a Wish foundation. I also spend a lot of time on other games, so I won’t sit on the couch and do nothing.
Bit of rambling, this post.. I will get on my feet I’m sure, and I’ll build some more when I feel like it.